Sunday, May 17, 2009

better now

well, all i can say is that things have got better now and i really appreciate it. and the only song that plays in my head and reminds me of what have happened and what is happening now is taylor swift's you belong with me =)

Monday, May 11, 2009

=(

blogging hasn't been my favoured thing to do for the past dont know how long since i last blogged. but this post for sure isn't gonna be any nice sweet post. i'm just feeling drained, lost, broken, shattered, angry, confused, astray, meaningless, sad..whatever you name it..

just when i see a ray of hope, the next thing i know i'm in darkness again. i guess this is the best way i can say is happening. and now, i feel like a spell of bad and unfortunate event raining over me "abundantly" so much that i just don't know what to do anymore.

i thought it was all smooth sailing till one day i just felt that i got stabbed by millions of sword and the pain to bear is just the normal pain i can handle. and from then on, things just got worse. at first i made a promise,and one statement by someone made me more determined because then i see hope. and now i'm confused because i don't know what i should do or what should i feel for this someone because deep inside there's only this someone. never have i felt this much passion for a person to the point that everything i do, i want it to be best for this someone. and then a few messages came and all it did was just pierced the swords even deeper.

i'm only hoping this someone would change her mind over what this someone had said and i am, from the bottom of my heart ready to forgive and forget this moment. but its never easy to let go of someone you feel so much fore.what more the feeling that you have never felt before in your entire life about a special someone in your life. i'm sorry but no matter what i'm keeping to my words until i am not able to do anything about it.

i don't think i can say anything more here because im just losing it. and i hope and would appreciate if whoever sees this, just leave me as i am.