what? where? huh?

well this have been lingering in my head for a very very long time already and the answer has not yet been answered. which social group do i actually belong in? is this where i really want to be? is this what i really want? am i really happy with what i'm in right now? really just seeking an answer..maybe going back to canada would serve me better..or do i really want to live like this here hanging in between no lines? GOD GIVE ME AN ANSWER!!!