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i was rounding the city with some friends when suddenly someone raised this question "what does it take to have a girlfriend?" and to my surprise, another replied "money! if you have no money you can't have a girlfriend simply because you cannot support her"..

and the question i raised back is "why is money everything? what can money bring you? can money bring you happiness? so money is the passport to a relationship and without money you can't be in one?".. well, yes i agree that money brings you happiness, but how much or how long? for as long as you can afford her till your cash flow runs dry? to me though, its more of the question of the heart i guess..it don't matter if your partner is poor or rich, handsome/pretty or not so handsome/not so pretty, smart/ not so smart..its the question of are you sincerely getting in a relationship with him/her because you really love him/her as much as you love yourself. "who doesn't want a parent-in-law telling their friends that their son/ daughter in-law is rich?" left me questioning does it really matter?! its like trying to say to those less fortunate or below average families that they're failures and their in-laws should be ashamed of them? com'on give me a break!

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is it as simple as it gets?; look at yourself first. do you really qualify for him/her. or does him/ her really deserves you for you?

and all of the sudden someone i start thinking of someone although the little voice at the back of my head keeps yelling "fat hopes"..i succumbed to my conscience and so i texted this someone but i just don't know how to say things right. i just hope that time will play a part in this and through time, i could get this straight. i must honestly say that i am,was, and still is happy that this someone fell for someone. but i am also angry because i failed to do what i have always wanted and still want to do even before i came back from where i was this time of the year in 2008. the reason i came back was because of this someone and i still believe that this someone is the reason but i just can't help but wanting to go back merely to hide from what i cannot do as to what i plan to achieve when i come back. if this someone is reading this, i think you would know who i am because you probably received my text at just past 1am.

think about it folks. ignore the last section of this post.

*the sun is up, its time to sleep